i'm confuse....this is so pathatic

what should i do?

i dunnoe why but i cant seems to get rid of him...i juz dunnoe wat to do all this are driving me nuts. i hate going to e stall i hate 2 see e sight of him...and all that jus......arrrghhhhh....SHIT!.... he came for e last time ( ttz wat someone told me course he'll be going for reservice) yesterday..and i did approach him....seriously....e feelings i have is all mixed up....i hav no 1 2 talk 2...and i hav 2 bear all this myself..i dunnoe y...but its happening in me....

e tym i sit infront of him....something in me just kinda 1 2 give him 1 BIG tite slap, kick him all ard, pull his hair and lastly....give him a punch on his face...but on e other hand....i feel like huging him, crying on his shoulder and just work things out between us....but...its not going 2 happen....i mean neither of it happened yesterday.....

and rite now....i feel like committing suicide...............GOD....PLSSSSSS SAVE ME....I'M DROWNING!!!!...BREATHLESSS!!!!!.....

lappy owh lappy

my lappy went dead on me....motherboard corrupted....and to repair can course me up 2 $500....wtf!...aft so many yrs...u wemt dead on me...i hate u! i hate u!

Happy Ramadhan to all!!

may e fasting month brings only e good things to me
hope he'll not appear in-front of me during this month
hope that i'll be able 2 fast full this month
lastly...



i only hope for e best of e best...hehe

i can no longer wait

u made me waste most of e time in my life
u made me feel that waiting for u is no longer worthwhile
your ego is too high for me 2 fight
but nomatter wat
only u know wat ur true feelings are

i cn no longer wait
life have to carry on
although its hard
i'll try my best 2 forget u
u r my past
and we cn nvr be together
eventhough i know that u still have feelins for me
but your ego is too strong
and i cannot help u

i've had enough of waiting
and i'm very sick and tired of thinking abt u all e time
my patience is running out of order
I JUST CAN NO LONGER WAIT!


I'm sorry!

maafknku harus pergi,
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terima kasih tuhan,
kerana tunjukkn siapa dia,
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so thank you so much,
i'm sorry GOODBYE!

i'm soooo in love wif tiz song...hehe

I MISS HIM BADLY!!!!! :,(

life's a test

with mum not talking 2 me, i'm feeling kinda strez up wif her attitude this days, i mean she's not e ONLY person having problems...i too have my own prob...but y must she vent her fustration on me...this isn't fair...just because of 1 bloody small matter....u make it soooo damn big.....Fine...if thats e case...that I DONT GIVE DAMN to wat u wanna think...watever i do is also wrong 2 u...so y should i give e fuck abt it....to hell wif ur feelings!..

enough abt her...hmmm...lets move on...

saw that 'berok' e other day....guess wat....He no longer keep that tail of his...hehe...i'm sooo happy to see its gone...but unfortunetly....he's no longer mine....hmmm....kinda miss him rite now....wish...he's by my side....hugging me, kissing me...and yea...do e things we used to do...hehehe.....alrite2...time 2 wake up little girl.....he's not yours anymore....he's now belong to someone else....u've dump him....u've lose that chance of returning back 2 him....so y r u still thinking abt him???......

conclusion : i still love him

Losing someone

It hurts to know that someone is leaving you,

It hurts more to know that e person leaving is e same person who was always there when u needed a shoulder to cry on....

It hurts even more to try to accept e lost of that someone at e time when u need her e most....


nomatter wat, Life still have 2 carry on...

w/o you i'll live...

w/o you i'll still breath...

w/o you i'll try...

To carry on with life....